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Truth be told

Mon, 13 Aug 2012 05:13:52 -0400

Thank you for being my first everything. Thank you for being my first love, the first girl I brought home, the first girl I trusted implicitly. I thank you for breaking up with me. Honestly, wether you believe me or not I was thinking about doing it myself. I just never knew how to really do it. I didn’t know how to handle it, I wanted so bad to keep you happy. But I obviously wasn’t doing that. For whatever reason you didn’t love me back. I knew it all along, yet my ego got in the way. I was searching for the love that was never there. You could say that you loved me all you want. Let’s face the real facts. You never loved me. You felt forced to love me. I understand tho. Yet there was a few things I won’t understand. And one of those things is, why you never… Ever showed me the love and affection I deserved. Everyone and their momma knows I treated you like a motherfucking queen. Yet I was constantly shit on. You truly will never understand. I went to hell and back for you. I spent hundreds of dollars on you to simply make you happy. Yet in return, I didn’t get jack fucking shit. For example, your birthday… I planed for a week what I was going to do. I had my mom bring me a picnic basket, flowers, the food, everything. I tried to make you feel special. On my birthday… I got a card, a monkey, left over cupcakes, and jack in the box. In the card there wasn’t one, not fucking one I love you. Yet a girl in my English class wrote me a long ass letter telling me how great of a friend I was and how important I was to her. And how she loved me, yet the girl who is my girlfriend didnt say once that she loved me. That’s just one of the many examples. Yenno maybe you will learn from us and you will treat the next guy better. What really sucks tho, I should’ve gotten the love HE will get. I deserved it. And there is no way in hell you can say that’s not true. To be honest, I’m glad that my words sunk in deep. You did, in the end, end up like everyone else. You aren’t in my life anymore and you’ve hurt me. You were for a while different, but you changed. Idk if it was me, or something else but you did change. The girl I fell in love with was the girl I knew in the beginning. The girl that gave a shit about me, that kept me on my toes, that had that electric smile. But after a few months you were different, I was searching for that girl I used to know but I guess I’ll never see her again. And another thing. There will never be a guy that will treat you like I did. You will never get a guy like me. I don’t care if that hurts your feelings. One day you’re gunna realize you stepped all over the guy that would’ve done anything for you. Sometimes the truth is hard to face. I faced it when I realized that me and you were over. One day you’re gunna realize how good I was to you. But it’s too late. I want to thank you for a few more things too. I thank you for bringing me and my dad back to how we were before you. When I was with you me and my bad butted heads a lot. The night you broke up with me, I was already mad because I hadn’t said a word to my father in like 4 days. The next morning. I woke up hella early and I saw my dad in the living room before he left for work. I walked over to him, and hugged him. He looked me in the eyes and said “what’s wrong son, you know I am always here” and I told him how it was over. I broke down. I realized that he was always there for me, even tho you never were. I neglected him and my family for YOU, yet I didn’t get shit in return. As I was standing there hugging my dad, wiping my tears away. I looked up and saw my mom. She too was crying. It seemed as if she knew what I was going through. She came and hugged me as well. In that moment I was hurt, really bad… Yet I knew that my family would be here for me, and that my life will go on. One thing that I am mad at tho… You also made my sister cry. She might have cried harder than me. I sat on her bed and told her that it was over and she immediately started crying. That pain… The pain when my sister cried is unlike another I have ever felt in the world. My mother is a grown woman, she knows how to handle her feelings. My sister on the other hand doesn’t. I love my sister, we have a bond like no other. But that to me was the worst pain. Having to console my sister about something she has no control over. I don’t blame you but I don’t know if another girl will ever be allowed to be that close again. So thank you for showing me that as well. I also thank you because my next girl is going to do more for me. You showed me that the hard way. But hey at least I recognize it. I thank you for helping me realize who my real friends are. Many of my friends told me that I treated you way too good. And that I deserve better. Not only guys but girls as well. I had a girl tell me that she wishes her boyfriend treated her the way I did u. One guy told me that he and his gf got in an arugement because he didn’t do the shit I did. I now realize that I should’ve listened. But I was hard headed and infatuated. So I hope you realize how good I was. I don’t know if I should follow you on twitter or ig for a while. You can follow me Idgaf, but I just need to be totally separated for a while. Im sure I’ll see you again. It is inevitable, if I see you don’t be afraid to say hi… Who am I kidding we will just walk by each other like complete strangers. Which is fine. But when you do walk by… Remember what we had. How good it was. I regret nothing. I am who I am, and I obviously am not what you wanted. Good luck this year in all your hard classes. Hope you do well in gymnastics and dance. I hope your family is well and that you’re happy. I needed to just vent. So if you read this thank you. Im sure you’re already moving on. Peace out girl scout
Your first
Jason Childs

Thank you. For the memories.

Wed, 01 Aug 2012 15:38:07 -0400

Thank you. For the memories.

I'm so selfish.

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 23:25:01 -0400

aqueous-illusions:

I just want to be with you all the time. Like every day, every minute. I hate leaving your side. You’re my best friend, my lover, my hero, my soul mate. I just always want to be with you, in your arms, hearing your voice and kissing you all over.

I wasn’t upset earlier, just jealous. Jealous that you and him would go out and do things and have fun without me. Jealous that I wouldn’t be able to be apart of it. Jealous that I wouldn’t get to be apart of your smiles and laughs and fun.

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Mon, 30 Jul 2012 23:20:42 -0400

profisee: Dundee & Leonard

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 23:20:16 -0400

profisee:

Dundee & Leonard

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kaitlynadamss:

Follow me: http://kaitlynadamss.tumblr.com/

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megan91194: When somebody criticizes me:

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 22:59:06 -0400

megan91194:

When somebody criticizes me:

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sfcitylights: Bayview View of the Ballpark

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 22:47:24 -0400

sfcitylights:

Bayview View of the Ballpark

lovely-as-infinite: I want someone to notice how hard I’m trying. I want someone to grab me by the...

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 22:43:11 -0400

lovely-as-infinite:

I want someone to notice how hard I’m trying. I want someone to grab me by the shoulders and tell me to stop. I want someone to care. I want someone to acknowledge the fact that I’m falling apart.

I want so desperately to be saved. But I know no one will. So I just keep going, hoping maybe they might.

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Mon, 30 Jul 2012 22:42:24 -0400

Hey hoe guess what… I just made you smile. Love you

Fri, 27 Jul 2012 01:27:17 -0400

Hey hoe guess what… I just made you smile. Love you

Today's Thoughts

Fri, 27 Jul 2012 00:28:57 -0400

You… It’s all I’ve been thinking about today. Ive seriously been sitting here just thinking about us. I’m sure I am not the easiest to keep happy. I don’t mean to be like this. I was thinking about it and I do come off like I’m not happy. So I’m going to tell you right now… When we have a day where we butt heads, it’s still better than any other day before you. Ever since February 3 you have made my LIFE better. Yeah feb. 3 the first day I ever spoke to u. Our feelings, at least mine grew like fucking wild fire. I could see then how amazing you are. Everyday you give me a new reason why February 24 I made a great decision. Im sorry if I frustrate you, I know I drive you crazy sometimes. I also know that I make YOU happy. I wish i did it more. I really try babe. I try to make you feel like you’re the only girl in the world because I know that’s what u want. It’s what every girl wants right? Just know your happiness is my only concern. If I had to cut off all my hair, run around the world, go to the moon, just to make you happy, I’d do it without even thinking. I know you’re special.. The reason I know this is:
1) after all this time I still try to impress you
2) I still get those butterflies like when we first started talking
3) you accept me even tho I am a fucking mess
4) I can actually trust you. Wether you believe me or not I fucking do. You’re the first girl that I trust with EVERYTHING. I mean that
5) even when I’m mad, you still can make me smile, laugh, be happy. (sometimes I hate that too lol I try to be mad soo bad then u come and make me smile and I’m like noooo you fucker lol)
6) you’re different than any other girl in this world. I feel like I’m different than all the other guys. We’re weird together and we love it
7) I get this feeling with you. The feeling no person has ever given me before. I’m usually good at expressing myself. This feeling I can’t. One thing is for sure… It’s love.
8) those nights when we get soo irritated with each other, when we are frustrated with one another. You tell me every time that I am what YOU want. Thru all the little bullshit drama I know you still love me.
9) my parents adore u. My parents always told me growing up that if I bring a girl home she had better be good. Well my parents tell me that I picked a GREAT girl.
10) you bring out the best in me. Wether you believe me or not you do. Like I said before ever since you have been in my life I’ve been way happier. You’re the girl I’ve always looked for. I honestly didn’t think you would ever exist. But then u retweeted me lol

There are 3 words that mean the absolute fucking world to me. More than any other three words have. Ready to hear them?
Isabella Carolina Montufar
Ok it was a name instead of words but those words symbolize more than happiness but it represents “I love you” “weirdo” “comfort” “trust” “laughter and smile” “sexy” “beautiful” “my everything”. Bella you mean this much to me. I thank you for loving me even tho I am a mess. I dont know how you do it. Don’t stop tho lol.
I could honestly write about you for hours on end. I’ll do anything to make you happy, to make you feel special. I love you montufart… I pinky swear it

Sometimes I just need to write to get my feelings out. I’ll never like the fact that guys are...

Thu, 26 Jul 2012 02:04:59 -0400

Sometimes I just need to write to get my feelings out. I’ll never like the fact that guys are going to want to be your friends. I honestly don’t care that you have guy friends. Shit were great I get it. With a girl as attractive as you, I am scared to death that I’ll lose you. That a guy u used to care about will come and sweep you out from under me. Especially now that this kid is txtin you a lot. Idk it bugs me. I know u aren’t going to stop texting him because you are who u are. Just don’t cross that line. Once it is crossed, I will not look back. I mean that. So I’ll leave the ball in your court. If you love me, if I am something you want instead of something you have… Don’t do anything thatll make me go.

Well today is my 5 month anniversary with my girlfriend. I love...

Tue, 24 Jul 2012 03:44:57 -0400

Well today is my 5 month anniversary with my girlfriend. I love her so I write posts about her all the time. She never does for me but it’s whatever. Im not gunna lie, being in a relationship with someone isn’t always easy. But to stay happy all you have to do is trust, and treat your partner the way you want to be treated. Be honest too… Me and Bella took this picture a long time ago. This is one of our first pics together. I remember she was still nice to me then :) she was shy and quiet. Now I know the real bella. Sure she’s mean to me all the time. It’s hard at times yeah, but there is also those moments where she actually shows that she cares. I cherish those. I cherish her, because I know I’m no way near worthy of her. I just hope she never realizes it lol I hear all the time that high school relationships never last, that’s true… But what me and Bella have, at least the way I feel. Is deep. That’s just me though, ask her if she feels that way too. I put up with a lot because I know that I do love her. I’d do anything for that girl. Im soo happy that she is mine. These 5 months have flown by pretty damn quick. I hope we can spend forever together. I love you Bella… Im still not that great at tumblr so idk how to tag u lol soo I’ll just try to tag u like twitter @bellasimpilicty

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Tue, 10 Jul 2012 04:35:16 -0400

"~ “Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today."

Tue, 10 Jul 2012 04:30:43 -0400

“~ “Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today.””

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