I want someone to notice how hard I’m trying. I want someone to grab me by the shoulders and tell me to stop. I want someone to care. I want someone to acknowledge the fact that I’m falling apart.
I want so desperately to be saved. But I know no one will. So I just keep going, hoping maybe they might.
Hey hoe guess what… I just made you smile. Love you
You… It’s all I’ve been thinking about today. Ive seriously been sitting here just thinking about us. I’m sure I am not the easiest to keep happy. I don’t mean to be like this. I was thinking about it and I do come off like I’m not happy. So I’m going to tell you right now… When we have a day where we butt heads, it’s still better than any other day before you. Ever since February 3 you have made my LIFE better. Yeah feb. 3 the first day I ever spoke to u. Our feelings, at least mine grew like fucking wild fire. I could see then how amazing you are. Everyday you give me a new reason why February 24 I made a great decision. Im sorry if I frustrate you, I know I drive you crazy sometimes. I also know that I make YOU happy. I wish i did it more. I really try babe. I try to make you feel like you’re the only girl in the world because I know that’s what u want. It’s what every girl wants right? Just know your happiness is my only concern. If I had to cut off all my hair, run around the world, go to the moon, just to make you happy, I’d do it without even thinking. I know you’re special.. The reason I know this is:
1) after all this time I still try to impress you
2) I still get those butterflies like when we first started talking
3) you accept me even tho I am a fucking mess
4) I can actually trust you. Wether you believe me or not I fucking do. You’re the first girl that I trust with EVERYTHING. I mean that
5) even when I’m mad, you still can make me smile, laugh, be happy. (sometimes I hate that too lol I try to be mad soo bad then u come and make me smile and I’m like noooo you fucker lol)
6) you’re different than any other girl in this world. I feel like I’m different than all the other guys. We’re weird together and we love it
7) I get this feeling with you. The feeling no person has ever given me before. I’m usually good at expressing myself. This feeling I can’t. One thing is for sure… It’s love.
8) those nights when we get soo irritated with each other, when we are frustrated with one another. You tell me every time that I am what YOU want. Thru all the little bullshit drama I know you still love me.
9) my parents adore u. My parents always told me growing up that if I bring a girl home she had better be good. Well my parents tell me that I picked a GREAT girl.
10) you bring out the best in me. Wether you believe me or not you do. Like I said before ever since you have been in my life I’ve been way happier. You’re the girl I’ve always looked for. I honestly didn’t think you would ever exist. But then u retweeted me lol
There are 3 words that mean the absolute fucking world to me. More than any other three words have. Ready to hear them?
Isabella Carolina Montufar
Ok it was a name instead of words but those words symbolize more than happiness but it represents “I love you” “weirdo” “comfort” “trust” “laughter and smile” “sexy” “beautiful” “my everything”. Bella you mean this much to me. I thank you for loving me even tho I am a mess. I dont know how you do it. Don’t stop tho lol.
I could honestly write about you for hours on end. I’ll do anything to make you happy, to make you feel special. I love you montufart… I pinky swear it
Sometimes I just need to write to get my feelings out. I’ll never like the fact that guys are going to want to be your friends. I honestly don’t care that you have guy friends. Shit were great I get it. With a girl as attractive as you, I am scared to death that I’ll lose you. That a guy u used to care about will come and sweep you out from under me. Especially now that this kid is txtin you a lot. Idk it bugs me. I know u aren’t going to stop texting him because you are who u are. Just don’t cross that line. Once it is crossed, I will not look back. I mean that. So I’ll leave the ball in your court. If you love me, if I am something you want instead of something you have… Don’t do anything thatll make me go.
Well today is my 5 month anniversary with my girlfriend. I love her so I write posts about her all the time. She never does for me but it’s whatever. Im not gunna lie, being in a relationship with someone isn’t always easy. But to stay happy all you have to do is trust, and treat your partner the way you want to be treated. Be honest too… Me and Bella took this picture a long time ago. This is one of our first pics together. I remember she was still nice to me then :) she was shy and quiet. Now I know the real bella. Sure she’s mean to me all the time. It’s hard at times yeah, but there is also those moments where she actually shows that she cares. I cherish those. I cherish her, because I know I’m no way near worthy of her. I just hope she never realizes it lol I hear all the time that high school relationships never last, that’s true… But what me and Bella have, at least the way I feel. Is deep. That’s just me though, ask her if she feels that way too. I put up with a lot because I know that I do love her. I’d do anything for that girl. Im soo happy that she is mine. These 5 months have flown by pretty damn quick. I hope we can spend forever together. I love you Bella… Im still not that great at tumblr so idk how to tag u lol soo I’ll just try to tag u like twitter @bellasimpilicty